This is the most embarrassing and shameful part of my struggles with Trichotillomania. I pull the hair to find a root and then I pull it off the hair. Some people bite it off, others like me just like to remove it with their mouths. I find great relief when i have pulled and then removed the route. I am not interested in eating it, just the process of pulling, looking, separating the route with my mouth and then starting again is enough to keep me trapped. Of course not every hair has a route like this, so this just compels me to carry on pulling until I find one. Then I carry on. Its getting bad…my hair is thinning.
I find this picture a little ‘triggering’ in the same way a self harmer who cuts, finds pictures of self harm triggering. It sends a tingle through me and I know I will be compelled to do it again. And again.
I am going to go to the doctor about this, I am sick of it. But I am so ashamed that I don’t think I can talk about the fact I like to bite the routes.